Saturday, October 28, 2006
A Message in a Bottle
My heart may not be full, my life may not be perfect, and my mind may not be clear. However, my soul remembers the one who taught me about real love, happiness, and contentment. The soul remembers the one who looked inside of me and saw who I was on the inside instead of just the outside. The soul remembers the one who taught me what romance really means. The soul remembers the one who saw the goodness inside my heart for others. The soul remembers the one who would leave special notes around for me to find. The soul remembers the look in his eyes when we would see each other. The soul remembers the feel of his heartbeat when we hugged. The soul remembers the feel of his hand when he would touch my face. The soul remembers the feel of his gentle kiss. The soul remembers the sound of his voice when he sang our song. The soul remembers how it felt when he would wrap his arms around me. The soul remembers him, always...
All the love in my heart, I give to you. Always.
XOXOXOXOXOXO
by anonymous
i found this while surfing the net a few months ago. it was blogged under the title: "What Would You Write If You Could Write A Message In A Bottle?" - here's mine...Labels: articles
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7:52 AM
Tuesday, October 24, 2006
Beyond Forgetting
For a moment I thought I could forget you.
For a moment I thought I could still the restlessness in my heart. I thought the past could no longer haunt me - nor hurt me. How wrong I was!
For the past, no matter how distant, is as much a part of me as life itself. And you are part of that life. You are so much a part of me - of my dreams, my early hopes, my youth and my ambitions - that in all my tasks I can't help remembering you. Many little delights and things remind me of you.
Yes, I came. And would my pride mock my real feelings? Would the love song, the sweet and lovely smile on your face, be lost among the deepening shadows?
I have wanted to be alone.
I thought I could make myself forget you in silence and in song...And yet I remembered. For who could forget the memory of the once lovely, the once happy world such as ours?
I came because the song that I kept through the years is waiting to be sung. I cannot sing it without you. The song when sung alone will lose the essence of its tune, because you and I had been one.
I have wanted this misery to end, because it is part of my restlessness. Can't you understand? Can't you divine the depth and the tenderness of my feelings towards you? Yes, can't you see how I suffer in this even darkness without you?
You went away because you mistook my silence for indifference. But silence, my dear, is the language of my heart. How could I essay the intensity of my love when silence speaks a more eloquent tone? But, perhaps, you didn't understand...
Remember, I came because the gnawing loneliness is there and will not be lost until the music is sung, until the poem is heard, until the silence is understood....until you come to me again.
For you alone can blend the music and memory into one consuming ecstasy. You alone...
XOXOXOXOXOXO
by Rolando A. Carbonell
for him whom i thought i could forget...Labels: poems
Monday, October 16, 2006
Things to Do
Got this from Tonton.
Instruction: Highlight the ones you've done.
01. Bought everyone in the bar a drink
02. Swam with wild dolphins
03. Climbed a mountain [partially though]
04. Taken a Ferrari for a test drive
05. Been inside the Great Pyramid
06. Held a tarantula
07. Taken a candlelit bath with someone
08. Said 'I love you' and meant it
09. Hugged a tree
10. Bungee jumped
11. Visited Paris
12. Watched a lightning storm at sea
13. Stayed up all night long and saw the sun rise
14. Seen the Northern Lights
15. Gone to a huge sports game
16. Walked the stairs to the top of the leaning Tower of Pisa
17. Grown and eaten your own vegetables
18. Touched an iceberg
19. Slept under the stars
20. Changed a baby's diaper
21. Taken a trip in a hot air balloon
22. Watched a meteor shower
23. Gotten drunk on champagne
24. Given more than you can afford to charity
25. Looked up at the night sky through a telescope
26. Had an uncontrollable giggling fit at the worst possible moment
27. Had a food fight [cake fight actually]
28. Bet on a winning horse
29. Asked out a stranger
30. Had a snowball fight
31. Screamed as loudly as you possibly can [cheering at UAAP games usually]
32. Held a lamb
33. Seen a total eclipse [of the heart???]
34. Ridden a roller coaster
35. Hit a home run
36. Danced like a fool and not cared who was looking
37. Adopted an accent for an entire day
38. Actually felt happy about your life, even for just a moment
39. Had two hard drives for your computer
40. Visited all 50 states
41. Taken care of someone who was shit faced
42. Had amazing friends [still have them]
43. Danced with a stranger in a foreign country
44. Watched wild whales
45. Stolen a sign
46. Backpacked in Europe
47. Taken a road-trip
48. Gone rock climbing
49. Midnight walk on the beach
50. Gone sky diving
51. Visited Ireland
52. Been heartbroken longer than you were actually in love
53. In a restaurant, sat at a stranger's table and had a meal with them
54. Visited Japan
55. Milked a cow
56. Alphabetized your CDs [eeewww...geek!]
57. Pretended to be a superhero
58. Sung karaoke [i'm sure hindi counted yong "listened to someone sing karaoke"!]
59. Lounged around in bed all day
60. Posed nude in front of strangers
61. Gone scuba diving
62. Kissed in the rain
63. Played in the mud
64. Played in the rain
65. Gone to a drive-in theater
66. Visited the Great Wall of China
67. Started a business
68. Fallen in love and not had your heart broken
69. Toured ancient sites
70. Taken a martial arts class [judo for PE]
71. Played DVD for more than 6 hours straight
72. Gotten married
73. Been in a movie
74. Crashed a party
75. Gotten divorced
76. Gone without food for 5 days
77. Made cookies from scratch
78. Won first prize in a costume contest
79. Ridden a gondola in Venice
80. Gotten a tattoo
81. Rafted the Snake River
82. Been on television news programs as an "expert"
83. Got flowers for no reason
84. Performed on stage
85. Been to Las Vegas
86. Recorded music
87. Eaten shark
88. Had a one-night stand
89. Gone to Thailand
90. Bought a house
91. Been in a combat zone
92. Buried one/both of your parents
93. Been on a cruise ship
94. Spoken more than one language fluently
95. Performed in Rocky Horror
96. Raised children
97. Followed your favorite band/singer on tour
99. Taken an exotic bicycle tour in a foreign country
100. Picked up and moved to another city to just start over
101. Walked the Golden Gate Bridge [pwede bang ridden a car across it?]
102. Sang loudly in the car, and didn't stop when you knew someone was looking
103. Had plastic surgery
104. Survived an accident that you shouldn't have survived
105. Wrote articles for a large publication
106. Lost over 100 pounds
107. Held someone while they were having a flashback
108. Piloted an airplane
109. Petted a stingray
110. Broken someone's heart
111. Helped an animal give birth
112. Won money on a T.V. game show
113. Broken a bone
114. Gone on an African photo safari
115. Had a body part of yours below the neck pierced
116. Fired a rifle, shotgun, or pistol
117. Eaten mushrooms that were gathered in the wild
118. Ridden a horse
119. Had major surgery
120. Had a snake as a pet
121. Hiked to the bottom of the Grand Canyon
122. Slept for more than 30 hours over the course of 48 hours
123. Visited more foreign countries than U.S. states
124. Visited all 7 continents
125. Taken a canoe trip that lasted more than 2 days
126. Eaten kangaroo meat
127. Eaten sushi
128. Had your picture in the newspaper
129. Changed someone's mind about something you care deeply about
130. Gone back to school [kelangan ba nag-aral? pwedeng yong dumalaw lang?]
131. Parasailed
132. Petted a cockroach
133. Eaten fried green tomatoes
134. Read The Iliad
135. Selected one "important" author who you missed in school, and read
136. Killed and prepared an animal for eating
137. Skipped all your school reunions [not on purpose]
138. Communicated with someone without sharing a common spoken language
139. Been elected to public office
140. Written your own computer language
141. Thought to yourself that you're living your dream
142. Had to put someone you love into hospice care
143. Built your own PC from parts
144. Sold your own artwork to someone who didn't know you
145. Had a booth at a street fair
146. Dyed your hair
147. Been a DJ
148. Shaved your head
149. Caused a car accident
150. Saved someone's life [but i didn't know it until a year after]
XOXOXOXOXOXOLabels: lists quizzes and surveys
a.o.u.i.e. scribbled this @
7:23 AM
Thursday, October 12, 2006
Seven Songs
Tagged by Arbet
List seven songs you are into right now. No matter what the genre, whether they have words, or even if they're not any good, but they must be songs you're really enjoying now. Post these instructions in your blog along with your seven songs. Then tag seven other people to see what they're listening to.
1. Ewan - Imago
2. You're Still the One - Shania Twain
3. Your Love - Erik Santos
4. Kisapmata - Erik Santos
5. Umagang kay Ganda
6. Anything for You - Nina
7. Nakapagtataka - Sponge Cola
XOXOXOXOXOXO
I tag the following:
Paul, Trisha J, Noreen, Eric, Tonton, Iris, RicaLabels: lists quizzes and surveys
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6:22 PM
alles Gute zum Geburtstag
alles Gute zum Geburtstag my dearest. here's a virtual cake for you. i hope you have wonderful day ahead.
XOXOXOXOXOXOLabels: random ramblings, snapshots
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8:15 AM
Wednesday, October 11, 2006
Birthday Eve
it's the eve of your birthday and here i am waiting for midnight so i can greet you. how i wish i could see you tomorrow and greet you personally. but that's not possible - i have work and i know you're on duty.
just 13 minutes more...
XOXOXOXOXOXOLabels: random ramblings
Sunday, October 08, 2006
Of New Numbers and Text Messages
last night as i was drifting off to sleep, a text message came in and with half-closed eyes i read the text. it was an unknown number informing me of a new number. but the nitwit who woke me up forgot to say whose new number it was. while i was composing a polite "who's this" text message, another message came in.
so you changed numbers...
XOXOXOXOXOXOLabels: random ramblings, snapshots
Wednesday, October 04, 2006
The Thing About AA Girls
Got this from my sister's blog. I modified it a bit though.
1. The AA girl has mastered the art of balancing a plate of pasta on top of a cup of iced tea, and eating it from there while standing or walking
2. The AA girl will bargain with the manangs in the cafeteria to get a larger quantity of food
3. The AA girl always look forward to being the last person to buy shake or iced tea or baked mac/spaghetti/carbonara/palabok from a manang because the manang will always give her excessive amounts of them, just so all the food would be finished. No extra charge
4. No matter how lady like AA girls are, when it's carbonara day, everyone runs to the cafeteria line
5. The AA girl has mastered the art of buying recess, eating, researching in the LRC, and doing the usual bathroom rituals all within the 20 minute recess period
6. When it comes to schoolwork, the AA girl has mastered the art of cramming
7. The AA girl's batch always dislikes the batches lower and higher than them
8. Most AA girls went through the "I like Sir Louie" stage and then vehemently deny they ever went through it
9. All AA girls love Sir Beni
10. AA girls never follow the 3-inches-below-the-knee skirt rule and the 2-inches-below-the-knot necktie rule
11. The younger the AA girl is, the shorter the skirt and the longer the necktie is and the older the AA girl gets, the longer the skirt and the shorter the necktie becomes
12. The AA girl will always be 'game' to sit ANYWHERE - the floor...the grass...the teachers table...the observer's table...regardless of who's around
13. The AA girl hates taga-bundok comments
14. The AA girl hates make tusok-tusok the fishball comments
15. AA girls are definitely not cono
16. Regardless of how many years an AA girl has studied in AA, she will always dread Ms De Vera's Assumption School Song quiz...she never gets it exactly right
17. Right after singing Lupang Hinirang, an AA girl will automatically raise her right hand (shoulder lever) to recite the Panatang Makabayan
18. There is a set dialogue between all AA students and Mrs. Aguilos after every Mass. It's so scripted it was as if you're pressing a rewind button:
Mrs. Aguilos: Alright... so did you sing well?
AA Girls: (screaming) YEEEEEEEESSSSSSSSSS! (stop)
Mrs. Aguilos: Did you participate in the mass well?
AA Girls: (screaming louder) YEEEEEEEEEESSSSSSSSS!!! (stop)
Mrs. Aguilos: Alright. And BECAUSE...(pause)
AA Girls: (cheering) YAAAAAAAAAAAAAYYYY!!! (stop)
Mrs. Aguilos: Its (place name of special occasion here)... (pause)
AA Girls: (cheering still) YAAAAAAAAAAAYYYY!!! (softens but is continuous)
Mrs. Aguilos: We are going to haaaave... (pause)
AA Girls: YAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYY!!!
Mrs. Aguilos: ...a LOOONG RECESS!
AA Girls: (extreme cheering, laughing, rejoicing) YAAAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYY!!!!!!!
XOXOXOXOXOXOLabels: lists quizzes and surveys
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6:13 PM
Monday, October 02, 2006
My Message in a Bottle
My dearest Hugs,
UAAP season has just ended and Ateneo has lost the Championship to UST. A million memories have been flooding back in my mind since the finals series began more than a week ago - memories of college and memories of happy moments with you.
The other day, a friend asked me if I can remember the last time I was happy with you. And without even stopping to think twice, I said Valentine's Day. After all, that was the last time we were together. You treated me to dinner and took a cab home with me afterwards. It was a pleasant surprise and to this day, I have no idea why you did the things you did for me that night. No regrets though, it was a wonderful date and I am thankful even just for that one night.
During the typhoon, with nothing else to do but think, I realized how pathetic I have been the past four years. Time and again I told myself that I want to let everything go, that I really owe it to myself to move on. But then, if I'd just be honest with myself, I'd admit that despite knowing what I should do, moving on scares the hell out of me. I knew, for four years, how I felt for you and even if for a great part of those years I didn't know exactly where we stood, I held on to the familiarity of the situation. I stubbornly held on to the hope that one day you'd realize how much I mean to you and when that day comes we can finally give what might have been another a chance.
I don't know what I'm writing this for, I doubt if you'd even get to read this. All I'm certain of is that I love you and I'm still hoping. I know that whoever gets to read this would scold me for feeling the way I do, but saying differently would be a lie. I'm not proud of it, I know what should be, but it's how I feel and I stand by it.
'Til the next time my Hugs.
Yours, Kisses
P.S.
You know, I haven't called you that for longer than I can remember and I really miss it. I really miss you.
XOXOXOXOXOXO
if you can't let go now, either you never will or you're not supposed to...
Labels: scribblings from me
