Thursday, December 17, 2009
2009 Christmas Wish List
This is now the fifth straight year I'm doing my wish list tradition. Here is my 2008 Christmas wish list:
1. a new wallet
2. a professional digital camera
3. a new laptop
4. improve my photoshop skills
5. catch up with the TV series episodes in my external hard drive
6. meet erik santos in person and have my picture taken with him [jologs ako...so shoot me!]
7. back-to-back UAAP championships for admu
8. double my savings
9. travel - either around the philippines [at least one beautiful place per region] or on an asian-pacific cruise
10. a special someone
Five wishes out of 10, not bad...anyway, here is my 2009 Christmas wish list:
1. an actual kikay kit with makeup inside
2. the perfect bag
3. a professional digital camera
4. a new external hard drive
5. have a good sound investment i can earn money from eventually
6. catch up [again] with the TV series episodes in my external hard drive
7. meet erik santos in person and have my picture taken with him [jologs ako...so shoot me!]
8. three-peat UAAP championship for admu
9. travel - either around the philippines [at least one beautiful place per region] or on an asian-pacific cruise
10. a special someone
XOXOXOXOXOXOLabels: lists quizzes and surveys
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
2008 Christmas Wish List
I've been doing this wish list tradition since 2005 so this makes it my fourth wish list. A quick look at my old lists tell me that a lot of the items appeared on more than one of my wish lists. Here is my 2007 Christmas wish list:
1. a full length mirror
2. a professional digital camera
3. travel - either around the philippines [at least one beautiful place per region] or on an asian-pacific cruise
4. meet erik santos in person and have my picture taken with him [jologs ako...so shoot me!]
5. a savings account with at least six figures in it
6. a UAAP championship for admu and UAAP tickets to all admu games for season 71
7. regularization in my current job
8. peace at home
9. see my lola again
10. a special someone
Five wishes out of 10, not bad...anyway, here is my 2008 Christmas wish list:
1. a new wallet
2. a professional digital camera
3. a new laptop
4. improve my photoshop skills
5. catch up with the TV series episodes in my external hard drive
6. meet erik santos in person and have my picture taken with him [jologs ako...so shoot me!]
7. back-to-back UAAP championships for admu
8. double my savings
9. travel - either around the philippines [at least one beautiful place per region] or on an asian-pacific cruise
10. a special someone
XOXOXOXOXOXOLabels: lists quizzes and surveys
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9:39 PM
Monday, September 01, 2008
Last Straw
I am tired of writing about you. I am tired of reading the same regretful lines, the same sad story over and over again. I hate the fact that you make a hopeless romantic sucker out of me. I hate you for making me regret things even if it all happened five years ago. I am stuck in a deep rut because of you. I hate you more for making me hope and making me wait for you to come back so we can start all over again.
I am so stupid for believing that somehow, you still feel the same about me. If you really want me back, you should have come for me a long time ago. I was a fool for believing only the things I want to see. I was a fool for nurturing the memories and keeping it alive deep within my heart for five years.
I should have known this before—you’re a big coward, a big baby who doesn’t want to grow up. You wasted your time whining and complaining about your life when you already have so much. You masked your fear and cowardice perfectly well. I told myself that your spoiled-brat attitude is a mere manifestation of creative angst, that you’ll get over it in a few years and you’ll make it big someday.
Five years has passed. Our lives have changed so much, but not my feelings. Not my goddamn feelings. I’m still in love with the angst-ridden boy I met five years ago. I am still in love with the fact that once in my life, somebody loved me the way you did; that I once hurt for someone as much as I did for you.
But you know what, life has finally slapped me awake. You’re totally over me—that I should accept. I am no longer you’re true north; I no longer make you feel as if the stars and the moon exist because of the two of us; I no longer make you feel as if you could fight the world weaponless for me. I am no longer “the one”.
Letting go and moving on for real has never felt this sad and liberating. Admittedly, you’ll always have that softest spot in my heart. No one can ever take your place. I’m quite sure that I’ll never fall in love with somebody the way I fell for you. But that’s okay. Maybe when my life is over, I’d look back and smile at the memories I lovingly preserved deep inside my stupid, young heart. Maybe I wont shed a single tear anymore, and maybe, just maybe, I’ll thank the heavens above for enlightening me and making me understand that it has never been us and there will never be us in this lifetime.
Goodbye my friend. Now I’m convinced that I was never your soulmate, that I was never for you. Maybe somebody out there is waiting for me. Or maybe not. Nevertheless, life should be more than regrets and tears or waiting for something that will never come.
Goodbye Andrei. And thank you for the memories.
XOXOXOXOXOXO
by ishda [from peyups]Labels: articles
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2:30 PM
Thursday, June 05, 2008
Taken almost 10 Years ago
XOXOXOXOXOXO
Labels: scrapbook pages
Sunday, June 01, 2008
First of June
XOXOXOXOXOXO
Labels: scrapbook pages
a.o.u.i.e. scribbled this @
1:49 AM
Saturday, May 17, 2008
One Hello
If you're not afraid of what love brings
Then endings are beginnings of beautiful things
It's a chance you'll take, a chance you'll win
If someone's gonna find you, first you gotta let them in.
Chorus:
(Coz) Love begins with one hello
The hardest part is over
Now it's easy letting go
One hello is how it starts.
You might win it all or lose your heart
If you're not afraid of what you feel
Then try and keep it simple or try and keep it real
And if being real means you'll some day say goodbye.
Refrain:
Remember my friend, goodbye's not the end
It's a circle you know and it starts with one hello.
Repeat Chorus
Repeat Refrain
It starts with one hello.
XOXOXOXOXOXO
by Randy CrawfordLabels: songs
Thursday, May 15, 2008
A Letter from Lola
my dearest,
enjoy and be happy now. there's always tomorrow more bright and shiny for you waiting here! no worry honey, God is always good and always w/ us all. we'll always be fine and i'll still be around (hopefully) when you come and enjoy your life here w/ me. thank God, i'm fine now and will soon be in good health. think ahead for the best and i wish you all the good luck God will provide you always. take good care of yourself darling. i love you! God bless you always! love you so much!!
mommy
XOXOXOXOXOXO
December 2007Labels: scribblings for me
Thursday, April 03, 2008
Give me a P!
Use the first letter of your name to answer each of the following.
They have to be real places, names, and things. Nothing made up! Try to use different answers. If the person who answered the survey before you had the same initial letter you can't use the same answers he used. You can't use your name for the boy/girl name question.
Your name: P**
Four words: Pen, Paper, Pouch, Post-it Notes
State/country: Philippines
Boy Name: Patrick
Girl Name: Peachy
Occupation: Programmer
Word that describes you the best: Punctual (ask my HS friends, my college friends, and my officemates...hehehehe!)
Something you can wear: Pants
Something found in a kitchen: Punch bowl
Name one object that is valuable to you: Phone
Something you shout: Peste!
Something you do at school: Pretend to study
Name of a friend: Patricia
Name of an animal: Pig
Name of a drink: Pina Colada
Name of a holiday: Philippine Independence Day
Name of a subject in school: Psychology of Communications (College)
Name of a cousin: PJ
Name of a fast food chain: Pizza Hut
Name of a person you're crushing or had a crush on: P******
Name of a food you like: Peaches
Name of a food you do not like: Pig Stew
Name of a kid's toy: Playdough
Name of a flowering plant: Pink rose (actually, i like white roses better)
Name of a shopping mall: Powerplant
Name of a person you like: Phillip
Name of a person you dislike: Paul *******
Name of place in your school: Penthouse (AA), Pubroom (ADMU)
XOXOXOXOXOXOLabels: lists quizzes and surveys
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1:24 PM
Wednesday, March 12, 2008
Note to Self
there's always someone out there fighting a harder battle.
*breathe...inhale...exhale...*
everything's going to be fine.
XOXOXOXOXOXOLabels: random ramblings
Monday, March 10, 2008
Conflicted, Drained, and Scared Shitless
There are so many conflicting thoughts and emotions within me that I desperately want to resolve or at the very least share with someone. But I can't resolve anything because their resolution doesn't lie within my hands. And for the life of me, I don't know who I want to talk with regarding everything. I'm usually good at knowing who I want to talk to but at this point, I'm so confused and unsure of things that I can't even determine who I think can give me comfort.
I'm physically tired with the long hours I spent in the office last week but I'm even more emotionally drained with the things going on at home and at the office. I can't cry at home like I used to because I have to be strong for my siblings and for my mom and I have to keep my wits at the office because one project after the other is starting and ending. I've never been really good at hiding the surges of emotion that I'm quite prone to having and right now I'm struggling to keep up my facade that's crumbling with every minute I spend sitting at my desk.
I have never been scared about the future and I have never wanted to run away from knowing the truth. Experience after all has taught me that however painful the truth is, it's better to know how things actually are than to keep wondering where things stand. But I'm scared shitless for the coming weeks. I'm scared of how things will eventually turn out at home and I'm scared of how things will get resolved at the office. I crave for stability and consistency even in just one part of my life and the uncertainty I'm faced with in every direction is making it hard for me to deal with what's going on.
XOXOXOXOXOXOLabels: scribblings from me, work-related
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