Thursday, February 14, 2008
Songs from the Past
It's been one hell of a distracting morning. I watched a Valentine's concert last night and though I knew I'd be hearing love songs, I wasn't prepared to hear some of the songs that were sung last night.Passenger Seat
Hearing this brought back a host of memories. They were memories that made me smile but ones I haven't revisited in awhile. In the past months that I haven't communicated with you, I never felt a stronger urge to text you than what I felt last night. God, I miss you so much.
If You're not the One
For five years, this song carried me through all the frustrating moments. I held on to every line of the song just as I held on to the belief that we crossed paths when we did because we were meant to be together. And there wasn't anything anyone could say to dispell my notion that I was waiting for something that will make all those years worth it.
What Do We Mean to Each Other
You gave me mixed signals. But somehow, despite the pain, I preferred the familiarity of our situation to the disorientation and listlessness I experienced when I was in the process of removing you from my life and from the future I'm trying to build.
One Last Cry
After three years, I finally broke my silence. We had a heart to heart talk where I told you everything I've been wanting to say since we graduated from college. You told me the exact things I prepared myself to hear but two days later, I was crying like I haven't cried in a long time. You meant the world to me but I was ready to let you go - I was ready to set the idea of 'us' free. I promised myself that that day will be the last time I'll ever cry over you. I told myself that I'm done with waiting, that I'm ready to reclaim my life. I'm still staying true to that promise I made but after all your mixed signals, I'm still in the process of moving on.
After last night and after all the emotions and the memories triggered by the songs I heard, I suddenly don't know where I am. Suddenly, I am not too sure if I'm already okay.
XOXOXOXOXOXO
Labels: scribblings from me
a.o.u.i.e. scribbled this @ 4:10 PM
3 Comments
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said @ 2/14/2008 5:37 PM
yan ang napapala ng mga *~ahas~*!!
haha, i'm such a bitch!!!
i am kidding, ok!
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p i a said @ 2/14/2008 5:41 PM
pang-aagaw signifies ownership...kanya ba, eh hindi naman?!?!
ahehehe...
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-= dave =- said @ 3/02/2008 5:08 PM
ahay "passenger seat"! :p pero mas gusto ko yung "out of my league."
