Wednesday, May 11, 2005
Bitter Musings
The sweet words you whisperedDidn't mean a thing
I guess our song is over
As we begin to sing ...
Could've been so beautiful
Could've been so right
I'll never hold what could've been
On a cold and lonely night
- Could've Been
there's nothing more i want than to break down and cry...to lash out at him...to hurt him as much as i hurt...
i want to make him realize that i am not some biology experiment he could easily discard or manipulate when things don't turn out the way he expected...that he shouldn't have said or done anything in the first place - not when he wasn't sure how he felt and not when there are feelings involved...that he should have at least had the decency to say goodbye and not just dropped out of my life without word or glance...
i wish i could demand honest answers to questions he never replied to...i wish i could go back in time and stop myself from loving him...i wish i could see the future and know for sure if i had successfully stopped myself from begging him to love me...i wish i could say to him - to hell with you i'm tired of hurting...
it's been a long two years...i wish i could just let go of what could have been and finally move on.
XOXOXOXOXOXO
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